more of the same....

Things are still very difficult at work. I am truly tired of dealing with my boss, who seems to be a completely crazed person. She hired a male friend of hers- they were "really close" at one time, and had been friends for years. He made the mistake of saying that he liked me. Totally innocent, but she has been bad-mouthing me with the other associates ever since. I am a hard worker, have been doing this kind of work over twelve years. Its amazing that there could be so much disfunction in one place. I am not sure what i am going to do, but i know something has to give. Life is way too short to spend it worried and stressed out over total b.s. I am still lonely, but i have faith that when the time is right, the man of my dreams will come my way. for the time being , i am working on getting myself together, mentally, physically, emotionally. one day at a time.

my crazy life..

Today has been terrible food-wise. I have been over-eating all day, something i have not done in a while. for one thing, i found out yesterday that my manager has been spreading lies about me. this is disturbing because she is trying to make me look bad amongst my co-workers. i am beginning to feel that i made a dreadful mistake taking this job. I must decide if all this drama is worth my sanity, my peace of mind. i am also angry because i am lonely. i have not been in a serious relationship since i moved , over a year ago. I would love to meet a good, honest man who's ready and willing to love me unconditionally, to be my lover and best friend. This is a very lonely time for me.